rain...

Some time ago I wrote to a dear friend of mine "there is a saying about the rain :"WHENEVER RAINS OUTSIDE THE ANGELS ARE CRYING" noone knows why the angels cry, maybe because they lost someone they love or just maybe cause someone dear to them, here on Earth is suffering. So they send rain as a message to let their loveones on Earth know that they ( the angels) are allways with them.So whenever you feel sad or you feel like everyone is against you and when you loock at the window and see that it`s raining, just know you`re not alone.In essence life was build in a perfect ballance.There allways was that fight between good and evil but one day the evil got greedy and tried to get every soul for himselph and the balance was distroyd.Eventualy God seeing that the evil is getting greedy, gived the human been a choice: TO BE GOOD OR BAD.So now we have our faith in our hands, we can keep the ballance or we can distroy everithing. And for every bad thing that we do we have to do ten good things to restore the balance cause bad things are allways easy to do and you don`t need alot of brain to do thembut to do a good thing takes alot of thinking involved and some of us simply don`t want to do a little effort"

I like rain mostly when I`m sad or angry cause I can`t cry whenever it rains I feel like the angels are crying for me and it makes me feel peacefull. Some people think that rain is the way that our lost love ones communicate with us, telling us that they`re allways watching us from Haven and that they`re sad or happy when we are. I personaly like to think so because it makes me feel less lonly, sometimes it makes me feel like I didn`t completly lost them, just that I can`t see them anymore.

So like I said before whenever you feel sad or lonly loock up to the sky and know that you`re not alone.

questions...

WHO?
WHEN?
WHY?
WHERE?
HOW LONG?
HOW? these are general questions that every human been has.
Usualy I have answers to almost anything, but, as every human been I also have some questions that I`ll never have the answer for. The most used question teenagers or young people have is "WHY?"... I ask myselph often "why" did I had to do the things I did evan or "why" did I hurt so many other people...
But now I wonder "why" was I given a secound chance, why me? why not someone else? cause there are alot more people in this world that pray for that secound chance all their life. A long time ago I was one of them, I wanted someone back so bad that I was ready to give my life so she could have her`s back, but that didn`t happen and as time past by I moved on but on a verry different path then the one she would want for me.
Now I have that secound chance and in her memory I won`t waist it, I`m a better man with a quiet life, sometimes is like I`m living in a dream...
Anyhow with this secound chance there are alot of questions involved : first is WHY? cause I didn`t do anything special ... But what I don`t really know is WHAT AM I SAPPOSED TO DO NEXT?
If someone has the answer to that question or at least an oppinion is welcomed to share it with me
~till next time ~see`ya~

fresh new start...

It`s been a while since I wrote the last article. At first I didn`t thought that I would write again but in the last week some good things happend and I was givven a secound chance in life. From now on I`m gonna start a new life and a better one I hope.Now the only thing I have to worry about is finding a job cause is damn hard to find one this days...

As answer to some of your questions about two of my articles "the movies... and the coffee cup story", YES there were the same two characters in bouth of the articles and as you thought one of them was me; and NO we are not dating, I thought that was clear that me and The Coffee Cup Girl are just friends (actualy she was more clear about this subject some time ago). Some other readers asked me "what will happen next?". Well I`m not a tipe of man that makes plans cause I`ve learned a long time ago that things don`t always go as you pland, so I guess we`ll just have to leave and see(or read).

Maybe this article is not so bright, maybe I got rusty or rustyer :) but again I hope you will enjoy reading it and the next to come
Until next time ...PEACE